I am amazed how my illness has focused my mind and memory. I am visualising and dreaming unbelievably vividly,browsing on NN I will be looking at a profile or photos and next thing will be in a daydream about past encounters. Group sex pics will trigger visual images of my wife being pleasured by two or three male, (or female) friends, the look of absolute pleasure on her face, the cum running out of her and the feel of it when my cock took its turn, so real, unbearable. Listening to one ladies voice greeting on NN, (her peeing) triggered immediate memories of Mary sitting on the toilet masturbating as she pee's, even hearing her at night peeing before bed causes me to dream of it. The only way we can have sex now is with Mary on top, I often close my eyes and imagine that Mary's cunt is one of our other friends, am able to picture them clearly. The other thing the illness has done is increase the sensitivy of my cock enormously, even peeing now is almost orgasmic!

Now erotic emails with other members is the best turn on for me, love to read what other couples are doing, or what they or singles would like to do to Mary or me, all messages are welcome, how about it?

Had to stop before finishing the previous entry, will continue now; Progressive deterioration continued finally, in July 06 a Neurologist diagnosed me with ALS, a death sentence, no treatment, no cure, no hope. For a 64 yr old, who, apart from coughs and colds, has never had a days illness, has always been athletic and active, quite a deal to come to terms with! Life changes for ever. Now, nearly 3 yrs down the track, I am totaly helpless, relying on others for everything from feeding to wipeing your backside.

The irony of this disease is that the mind is not affected, neither are sexual functions and sensitivity but you can't do anything yourself, can't even put your hand on your erection! If you have not got a really caring partner, your sex life is over. Thank god my wife of 43 yrs takes care of my sexual needs with great love.

I have no regrets, life has been a great adventure, the sexual side has been exciting, very little that we haven't experienced as an un inhibited couple and we can still experience adventure through friendships made on NN.

Life can deal you a real kick in the balls when you least expect it. Take me for example, Oct 2005, packing the caravan for a two week break with friends who we had not seen since a farewell fuck 17 years ago when we moved interstate. Very excited at the prospect of renewing our, once intimate, friendship.

I had been feeling odd sensations in my left leg for some time and now started to lose my balance, off to the doctor, stroke, hospital, tests, nothing, home. Symptoms getting worse, left arm now weak.

How great is this site? its a real community that allows us to be honest about our sexuality and to discover that lots of others of all ages, share the same sexual interests. I was happy to find that other guys (and gals) enjoy pissing, Mary, my wife, was pleased to find she's not the only girl to masturbate every day (at 63!)and that others love spunk as much as we do.

Now that I have started this blog I shall put some of our true experiences and some of our favorite fantasies on it.