I have been pretty quiet since, but we had problems before he got sick.

Thank everyone for their kind words and support.

I am going to take things slow and do not want anyone getting pushy with me right off the bat- but I do want to find a few men to play with me and my girlfriends sometime- if they are experienced in bondage and domination- and are not going to damage or leave marks etc.

Let me know what you got.
Love, Linny

I was 19 when I worked at the nursing home. I don't want anyone to get into trouble but that was 20 years ago. All I did was my job and on my own time I was friendly to some of the older men who were sweet to me. The only man I remember who wasn't in his 80's or older was a man who had a stroke. He was in his 60s I think. anyway I didn't do anything with any of the guys unless they suggested it all men flirt and even men that are that age do. Anyway it was their idea and I knew men were safe and sweet. women need to just relax about men- they are so full of drama and want to blame men for mens natural desires.
Anyway if a man wanted to be relieved I would talk with him and sit on his bed before he went to sleep. I made sure he had a good bath and helped him if he needed it. I would even give him a backrub. A lot of men had no affection for years and years and most of them hadn't had any sort of sex for a while for many reasons- widower, etc etc.
Anyway- if a man is relaxed he usually wants to enjoy an orgasm and he doesn't even have to get hard to have one- but most of the guys got a little hard- some even got very very hard. I loved it too when they were uncircumsized. It was fun and easier to play with them and stroke them that way plus they were sensitive. They all wanted to touch my breasts and I knew they would not hurt me so I opened my shirt and I also usually wore a kniw bra that would pull up or down easily or sometimes no bra My breasts are small and firm and honestly when I was 19 I didnt have much on my chest but I guess it was comforting to the men to touch my breasts and gently finger my nipples. not one man ever was rough with me or hurt me ever
anyway I would carefully see how hard the man could get and use both my hands one to hold the base of his penis and the other to make friction- if he got hard it was pretty easy and I used KY lube that is used for allkinds of things in a medical facility
The only problem with this is that you have to be sure no one else comes into the room of have the curtains drawn and then of course the guy has to be quiet and not make noise when he comes A lot of guys were so happy to be jacked off they were hard to keep quiet but after they understood I would have to leave or get into trouble if we got caught they would stay quiet.
I made a guy have an orgams no matter what I had to do or how long it took I was able to make men cum who were entirely unable to even get a slight hard penis- and were floppy I leanred that its rhythm and patience. There isnothing that make a man happier than to empty his sperm into a kleenex regularly. It made them very happy. I also think they were very turned on by playing around with a girl my age if I do the math these men were like 60+ years old when I was born which is pretty funny-
I think they would have done anything for me and I felt appreciated They talked to me about their problems and about life. they told me everything about men and I think that when a person gets older they get more honest they werent trying to impress me They were way cooler than younger men who just try to play around with a girl and impress her younger men are really pathetic a lot of times
there are a lot of nice younger men but they are harder to find than in older men
One of the men who got really hard whenever I jacked his penis was a little bigger than normal size and I wanted to put my mouth on his penis so I did touch the head of his penis with my tongue and then I also sucked him
Then I sucked a few of the other ones and I enjoyed it
I also got a taste of sperm at first I was surprised when the first man shot into my mouth because it shot with some force.
more than its being distasteful I was turned on by the feel of this throbbing thing shooting into my mouth that still really turns me on when a man does that also after you swallow cum a few times it tastes just fine in fact any one who says it tastes bad is lying it never tastes bad but some guys cum does taste a lot better than others
I only ever tasted cum from maybe 2 guys that was bad and I think it was medicine they were on
I have held many penises in my hands and most of them are the same size - about 5 inches more or less when they are hard some are thick and some are skinny and some of them are really long and some are really long and thick.
I have also seen many that were only a few inches long hard but the guy enjoyed what I did just as much.
I love to hold a mans balls in my hand too when I am jacking him off and I also hold the balls steady and tight when they cum unless the guy says not to. I always cleaned the man up with a dry towel and wet washcloth and I cannot remember one man who did not sleep really good right afterwards. I worked there for a few years its been a long time and I miss that job but I learned a lot
Did they guys tip me I would say but I dont want to get into trouble If they tipped me it wasnt very much because the people at this facility didnt have much money
I did not do it for the money. I just felt good about being appreciated.
Maybe I could have all you guys lined up some night and I could jack off a bunch of you guys (and suck you too )
I know women like to please men but they are so afraid that men will think they are weak or stupid if they are submissive. women need to learn that it is biological to be that way, men appreciate it and if they would just relax they would be a lot happier. Also sperm is very good for health and nutrition.
There are dozens of natural antioxidants in cum also it is very high in protein and almost no calories. It has essential minerals and if they would just get a mouthful of it and swallow a few times they would be fine with it and eventually swallow every time. A man told me way back when I was 19 or 0 that if women knew how much men enjoyed it when a woman swallowed she would swallow every time because the man would do anything for her if she did. It is true men appreciate that more than anything and its worth doing and gtting over any problem with the taste or idea of eating sperm I think women are getting better about eating sperm but many my age are silly about not wanting any of it in their mouth.
I actually enjoy it and always will.
I will post more later Love, Linny

I wrote this yesterday to respond to a friend on NN who had written me and was talking about prostate massage:
Sir- there are parts of a blow job that most women never understand- first if you don't swallow gratefully and immediately the man doesn’t enjoy it anywhere near as much, cum is not a bad thing at all and has very little taste and is a natural substance- second if the man is over the age of 35 or 40 (And the only men I have ever been with are that age and way older) you have to massage their prostate- it just takes one finger and its no big deal- some men come many times if you do this and it also helps empty their balls a lot more completely- Also a woman should be on her knees when she sucks a man - I am always on my knees whether the man is standing or sitting. A woman should be comfortable assuming a position of submission below a man while she is sucking him- it doesn’t mean a woman is less a woman. Men appreciate real women and feminine women- so don't be bitchy when giving a blow job- get down there and be submissive for a while. a lot of women can suck a man's cock and some can even throat - but how many of them can throat and while the penis is all the way back in their throat can also lick his ball sack really well? , and with the other hand massage his prostate outside and inside and then when he comes- swallow it all and clean it all up with her mouth and lips and tongue?- if you do that to a man he will appreciate you and he will actually enjoy it far more and you will have actually given a decent complete blowjob.
I only like mature men - young men are usually immature so they don’t know what they like- a mature man appreciates a woman with a natural bush and a woman who is real- Yes I shave my legs and my arm pits but my pussy is like it was supposed to me.
And real men like it that way- these shaved young girls these days with bald pussies look like children and I sort of think that is weird or even sick. Anyway that’s the way I am.
Thank you for appreciating me Sir!

I am close to getting into the top tier on rating- if you like my pictures my sister says rate me higher and she will get me a premium membership as a gift and post a bunch of pictures she took last weekend-
they even embarrassed me but I am over it now and I am ok with posting them
Let me know- its up to you guys
PS Thank you to all my friends- I feel a lot better about myself now. Thank you thank you thank you

The answer to everyone is yes I love sex. I think all healthy people do at least I think that they would. And also Yes of course I am real. I am a native "buckeye" woman and a normal person in most ways. I live on 25 acres surrounded by big farms and my husband has a job with a truck body company and I work for a really nice specialty warehouse. We have two HD motorcycles and one in parts and I drive a red Ford escort. I have two sisters and one sister lives far away and one of my sisters lives about a mile away from me. Anyway I have a semester of college but I have taken a lot of adult education classes for business and office.
I volunteer for 4-H and do a lot of work with them and I keep my house nice and I even mow grass and trim. My husband has had some serious health problems. He is a nice person most of the time but we have had our problems and he is unable to do much sexually due ot his health. He is also a littl eolder which is ok except he smokes and drinks and that makes his problems a lot worse. I consider myself to be a normal woman except maybe I am a little old fashioned and plain and submissive. I am shy and still am except it is so easy to communicate here with PMs and stuff. I also cook and sew. My best supper is when I make a beef roast with carrots,potatos and rudbagas and I make a really good pineapple upside down cake too. I am not obsessed with sex but I enjoy it and like most women I fantasize a lot. I like the idea of being appreciated by an older mature man who is past all the dumb games that younger men play. I admit I have been hurt by younger men but I also never was that attracted to younger men. Even since I was little I liked mature and burly real men. I never did like skinny young men. I love the idea of a man reaching ecstacy by me using my mouth and my tongue in many and creative ways. I also enjoy playing gently with a mans balls. I have always liked that. I think mens bodies are fascinating and I even like to stick the tip of my tongue into a mans peehole. Men are fun and fascinating to me. I am very real.
I ask that everyone be discrete with us here. this is a private site and I really dont think my husband would be hapy if he found out I was online here and then thinking about the people I meet online when I am rubbing my hitachi into myself at night sometimes. I just do not want to hurt him thats all.
Ok well I know I am no big deal but I wanted to answer some of your questions. And also thank you for saying such nice things to me. It makes me feel really good. I feel like this is the first place I have been really appreciated and I feel sexy here.
Thanks, Love, Linny

I was working for a dingy rehab hospital on the State Road outside of town. They had about 225 people there and mostly it was people on medicare. 80-90% on the men's side were over 70 years of age. I was probably a cute little package to those gentlemen and I was sweet to them as best I could be. After working as a nurses aid there for a few months one of the naughty men made a serious pass at me and I told him I would lose my job if I slept with him. I wouldnt have slept with him anyway I thought so that was a convenient excuse. I did think though about a lot of those poor men who had no sexual outlet ever in this part of thier lives. One of the nursing students told me about some of the women she had met over time who would satisfy the men in exchange for moeny. I asked what she meant thinking she was saying the women were screwing these men. She said it was just handjobs- that is it. Well I never once aksed or took any money for giving a man a handjob but if an older man made it clear he would be happier if I would relieve him I would do so. I didn't make anything of it. A lot of the guys couldnt even get hard- but if you hold them gently but firmly and massage their balls and are steady and patient you can make them cum and it is a great relief for them. I think I was th efirst sexual release a lot of these guys had ever had in years. A few of them came so much and some of them groaned in pleasure. I was very discrete and no one knew I did anything like that but the men loved me. Yes I let some of them touch my nipples as long as I knew they would be careful and gentle and yes all o fthem offered me their entire world t be their woman. But of course I couldnt but I was kind to them and I liked the attention. I was immature I admit but I did love older men as I have always and I loved feeling their penises in my hands knowing that they had children and were husbands and grandfathers and had been important men when they were young. I also learned to love mens balls. I dont know what it is. My husband has asked me many times why I love balls. AllI can figure is that the balls are the most intimate part of a man since they produce his sperm and and so sensitive and a lot of men aren't used to a woman paying a lot of attention to his balls. I never knew a man who didnt like me to tongue his balls and kiss and lick his ball sack. I know it also drives men wild when I lick the sides of their ball sack the little groove between their legs and balls all the way up and down. Anyway I do love balls.
Men all smell and taste a little different too. I like the smell of a man.
So anyway I know you think I am a slut now, but really I am happy to have given many men a memorable handjob as a young woman knowing that they enjoyed it and had a good healthy orgasm and relieved their pressure. I wish people in the US would not be so hypocritical about sex. It is time people in this country grew up and accepted that sex is healthy and natural.
ALSO- men and women both need to start realizing that a woman is a lot sexier with a thick natural bush- Once a woman has her full bush, the man will never want her to shave it. It is a wonderful part of the experience and separates the players from those who really love their woman and from those who prefer the look of a girl who has no pubic hair- THAT is SICK and perverted.
Ok I will get off my soap box. Give more handjobs to old men!!!!!LOL LOL

and they limit the amoutn of responses you can make in a day
I apologize.

Otherwise I would write to all of you every day

I don't know what it is about them but older men are so much sexier to me as a general rule. Yes young guys have nice bodies and their penises are nice and hard- but older guys have much sexier cocks in my opinion and I like some hair on their bodies and even a little bit of a belly is sexy. To me there is nothing like being appreciated by a mature man and to make him feel good and make him cum. Besides older men seem to squirt more of a volume of sperm and it is thicker. I like that.
I fantasize about being dominated by older men. I would love to be the center of attention for a group of men between 55 and 75 years old. That would be so wonderful. Plus older guys seem to like my natural hair on my pussy and stuff. Maybe I need my own harem of older men so I can make them play with my pussy anytime I want and I can suck them whenever I want.

My husband is a nice person for the most part but is jealous and possessive except when he is drinking. His health isn't very good lately so he doesnt drink as much which is good and bad. So I have to sneak online as you know. Anyway he doesn't even know how to turn on a computer. I thought he was going to like this site but he started getting mad when people expressed an interest in dumb little old me to his surprise. So now I have to be really careful. He doesn't think I do anything online anymore except email from my sister and my mother. Anyway thank you all for being understanding. I am 5 foot 5 inches tall and I weigh 135. I have brown hair and green/hazel eyes. I will be 37 soon. I admit that I enjoy the attention of a real man. Mature men are a lot nicer than most younger guys who tend to be arrogant and they dont like me the way I am anyway- They are always saying "shave your pussy" and stuff. maybe I like being natural.
What do you think I should do?
I will listen to any ideas.

my full name all together with no spaces at yahoo
My husband knows nothing about that and I appreciate all of you guys being so cool about this .
Love you xoxoxo Linny