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Got the wife's sister and bf coming to stay from tomorrow, this will curtail my time on here. Sigh
Still, after all the chat and play I've had over the last few days maybe my body could do with a rest.
Off to ride my horse Kavi in a few minutes, (hoping that it will stop raining before then). He has only been out once this week so is likely to be what we euphamistically call fresh. i.e he will be jumping and kicking for the first 10 minutes, he will be fine when he settles down, and if I have stayed aboard.
Have a good day
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A good day yesterday, gained two new friends one of whom I had a long chat with last night.
I have a private twitter account and have found many interesting and sexy people on there. One of whom is a woman I'll call C. She is a very controversial character and last week I had a long and explicit exchange with her. I was surprised at the dark places it took me to, I was offering to beat her and tie her up.Fantasy stuff I know and I'm sure that she enjoyed the role play.
In the spirit of exploration, yes I know, that excuse is wearing a bit thin now, but I looked at some of the images that she had posted on her challenging tumblir page. One of which was a short video of a gangbang/. I know that this was a staged film but it involved some fairly xxxxxxxxxx. The woman had every hole filled regularly and was slapped a few times if she didn't swallow all the cum.
The problem with this is that, like all people, I abhor and non consensual sexual acts, but this is what the film purported to show. I felt guilty and a little dirty watching it. (Note to self but you did watch it all the way through).
Sadly I was aroused by it, I feel ashamed of myself, but I can only be honest. It is unlikely that I will ever be involved in such a scene so ,along with shemales it must go down as a guilty fantasy but not one that will make me enquire further.
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Never say never is my new motto. On NN and twitter (the same handle) there are plenty of people happy to show off their bodies. They come in all shapes and sizes so in the spirit mentioned above I decided to take some of me.
I waited until H had gone out and nipped to the bathroom with the camera. After moving a bit of furmiture and sorting a mirror out I got started. A few with my pants on to start, in focus but not very sexy. Slipped them down whilst snapping away and then finally off.
Looked down and realised that the pubic area needed a bit of trimming, thought about shaving but H would notice and awkward questions would be asked. Job done and settled down again but now softness had set in. Off to look at a few of my fave pix (Thanks Mandi, among others) and it was soon pointed the right way. After a few there it was off to the bedroom for a few more.
By now I was feeling really liberated and happy, such a new and decent experiance. Off to download them.
Have posted the first few and will post some more as time goes on.
Hope you enjoy them

Despite what I may have intimated in my last entry I am still most interested in mature ladies to chat and swop pictures (and maybe more ) with
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My second day on NN and I had my first online chat. It was with a guy and was about having your cock sucked by a guy. This was quite a shock as I have never had a gay experiance in my life, not anti-gay just never thought about it.
I don't think he was offering to do it, just saying that he enjoyed doing it and having it done to him.
I am trying to be as honest as possible in this new existance and after getting over the shock of even talking about a gay episode, I started to think.
Doubt if I could suck a guy off but would I let one lick my balls, run his hand up and down my cock before bringing me to orgasm with his mouth (something my wife does not do) Well I don't know.
In the spirit of investigation I went to look at some gay porn. (Good grief most of those guys are hung) and have to say there was no stirring in the trouser department, until I found one with Shemales. A guy with tits and a cock. He was being fucked by another guy while a woman sucked him off. Ashamed to say that that did the trick, (see my new photo) I came really quickly.
May need to look into the bi-curious side now.
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I can't believe that I am doing this. Two weeks ago I was a happily married 50yr old bloke. As I turned the big 5 0 I gradually realised that I was missing something. Not sure what though. My wife of 24 years is an attractive woman and we have good times together but as we have got older she has lost her libido. I realised that the best I could hope for was to be pulled off about once a month.
Was given a computer for birthday and gradually found my way round it. Had a twitter account, then discovered milfmandi. She had started a secret account to have fun. I did the same and it has opened my eyes.
Not sure if I will have the courage, or chance to fuck anyone here but really want some intelligent, sexy chat. Maybe no one will read this I don't know but it is quite cathartic to write.
I have a lot more to say and will come back in the future.
Please contact me, even if only to say that I am a sad old fantasist with a small cock, I just would like some connection
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