well here i sit its 5 a.m. monday morning another weekend has passed . just like all the rest since my divorce. i feel completely lost since my divorce. if only i was able to fill her side of the bed as easily as she seems to have filled mine. ive tried our local bar scene......unfortunately my clothes are out dated and the fact that i dont watch t.v. excluded me from about 85% of the conversation topics. needless to say my "game" was non existant. tried online personal ads lol the only responses i got were from working girls who for onlly 200 dollars promised to make all my fantasies come true. 13 years didnt seem that long until i was back in the dating world. i know its selfish and superfiscial of me but my ex and i had an amazing sex life . 4-7 times a week not including afternoon quickies. and now cold turket , nadda, zilch. so i spend my free time buried in one of the numerous hobbies ive adopted since the split as i try and figure out my next move. i found this siye by accident and find the aninimity of this blog forum somewhat comfortable. at least for now i can blame my lack of success on the corona lockdown.