To you Mr A

You reminded me in one conversation why I am loving my life as a single woman.. I have yet to find the right way to share this with potential suitors, better than I do.. yes.. that is true! But for this very moment.. I have to thank you! You will be my reminder for months to cum too.. ;P

I LOVE being single.. I LOVE the whole freedom of it! I have been able to do so much in my personal life because I dont have some man that I am toting around.. I am not bitter.. I am just a realist.. I have been attached to a man for longer than I have not.. It is time for this Wendy to sail her ship on her own.. I am letting my freak flag fly freely (say that 10 times fast

I am single and I know it.. I am single and I love it.. I am single and I do not need a man to help me with it.. haha..

When you have been in two marriages... one lasting 18 years.. one 5 years... And you are only 41... I think anyone would agree.. that this adult needs some time on her own!

Now.. the kicker.. that no one is able to grasp... The NON sexual side of me.. I know.. silly Wendy.. being on a porn site and not wanting to be involved with the sexually hungry folk...

Well to help explain this better... mostly so when I am chatting with someone and they get all upset with me for being here and not wanting to virtually suck their cock, they can read this blog.. I wont have to waste my time explaining myself to anyone again, I will just direct them here

I am here for the ego strokes I get when strangers and friends either vote, comment, bookmark or follow anything I place on this site! This is the main reason I am on NN.. EGO repair!!!! A very close second is... I get amazing comfort and companionship from the friends I have made on here.. even the ones I only chat with here and there.. I value everything I gain from this site!

I am NOT interested in sex because it hurts... plain and simple.. I dislocate.. all my limbs and bones do not stick together.. I have to go to the hospital for one sexual session.. and I am in SEVERE pain for three weeks or so.. sometimes longer.. so.. would YOU be wanting to jump into bed with someone?? If you felt my pain even after a gentle sexy time.. you would be feeling the same way as I! Even the thought of someone inside of me.. makes me cringe with memories of all the pain I have endured... yuck!

As for the online fun.. gross.. it is only for the man.. let me repeat that ONLY for the man.. Some women love it.. and I beg you to go find them instead.. for me.. I dont get aroused online.. ever! never have!! At the end of it.. It is still just me, touching me.. so.. what is hot about that.. idk! I am not submissive! Allowing some man to get off because I did what he told me to do.. bahahahahahaha never would happen.. so.. why would I place myself in a position to help?

A very strong reason behind my choices is... Where the F is my O.. haha.. I went 38 years of my life before a man gave a shit enough to make me have a O during our sexy time... I vowed that day.. unless I get my O.. I am not going to actively help a man get his.. IF he wants to get aroused by my pics.. words.. and so on. have at er.. I am just not going to play along in conversations.. I will exit stage left if I start to feel uncomfortable..

With all of the above shared.. I do declare that when I say I wont play online.. Date or Fuck to fuck (gross!) I will be believed! Fuck ya!!! to be believed.. would be a dream cum true!!!

I have decided that I will just keep going along like I have been.. eNNJoying the fuck out of life!! Seeing the world through the eyes of a NOT crying all the time gal! What a beautiful change for me! To stop having to say all those negative words about myself.. and explaining myself for everything I say.. do.. think.. want.. crave.. desire.. and need.. grateful am I!!!!

Hugs for you Mr A.... and each and every single other NNer out there.. even Jr..

HUGS!!!!!!

Good day..

When I arrived here In September of 2013.. I was looking for an outlet to share the pics I had been taking.. Being in a family where weight mattered more than acceptance.. I was always shown how "fat and ugly" I was.. Told many times.. both mean and in cruel ways..

To say I was a broken egoed soul when I arrived, would be a massive understatement.. I knew that my insides were already kick ass.. I am sweet.. kind.. thoughtful.. silly.. and down right amazing! I needed help with my outer shell.. I needed to be told that the people closest to me were WRONG!

When I posted my first pics.. I was impressed that there were other men out there thinking I was amazeballs on the outside.. I spent a lot of time sitting in disbelief that I was getting votes.. and comments.. at the same time feeling more and more confident..

Fast forward about a year.. My confidence was through the roof.. I was getting followers on this site.. I was getting votes.. comments.. on not only my pics.. but my blogs too... That was where I was able to share my thoughts of serious natures.. and be my silly self with my naughty Lego series.. The Blog challenges we used to have.. It was all fun..

Then I stumbled into Status.. This is where the Family and magic occur.. You would think when I post a status, like you would on that other site Fb.. your status goes into the unknown.. Here.. there is always someone there to read it.. For the most part.. you get a silly response.. This is where all the F*&kery happens.. and this is also where you will meet the family..

A family on a "porn" site.. yes.. you read that right! This place has a wide variety of people who come here for unknown amount of reasons.. Mostly to see the lovely nakedness, sure.. but others come here just to interact with some of the most amazing people in the world..

There are so many other areas of the site to eNNjoy as well.. like the forums.. all the reading alone in there.. would take you months to get through it, plus all the possibilities to interact with other NNers, is endless.. How about the chat section..I feel that is more for the aroused people.. but I have had some amazing conversations with NNers about Hockey, weather, photography, and all around normal stuff..

I am here posting pics to help my Ego shed away all the years of the WRONG words being said to me.. My ex husband was going on about how I was not pretty anymore.. and how I let myself go.. and how he was disgusted by my outer shell.. That showing off was wrong.. and that no one would ever get aroused by me.. that I should NEVER ever show off for others.. Big girls are never to do that!! Before him.. my mom would say the same things.. "You are fat Wendy.. you will never attract a man ever" and so on.

After I had been here for a little bit.. hearing those words made me just laugh.. and think.. "HA.. you dont know what you are talking about!" NN did that for me!! The many faceless men helped me gain that confidence where no one could convince me that I was fat.. Truly! I would get trolled here (cause that happens everywhere sadly) and I would just pass over those mean spirited men and women because I did not believe them.. I did not believe those harsh words of "fat and ugly" anymore.. NN did that for me!!!

Fast forward again.. I meet a man in my real world... Fall deeply in love with him.. He joins the site.. encourages me to keep posting.. and even joins in for some joint pics.. It only took a month or two for me to feel less of a woman than I am.. He had a nasty way of making me feel that I should be ashamed of my looks.. not because he would tell me.. but because he would point out the other ladies who were hot.. and they were all of a skinnier nature.. My ego thought.. oh.. well.. I guess we are not that hot anymore.. and I really am just a fat girl.

WIth that ego loss.. I stopped coming here.. I stopped interacting with my NN family.. and I stopped taking and posting pics.. Once again.. My ego was bruised and feeling like there was no way in banana cakes I was going to feel the way I did back when I started here..

I came back anyway.. knowing how it helped me before.. I decided about 6 days after I split from my last ex... I needed to do something to help me.. I posted a pic of me that was just a fluke shot.. it looked fantastic in my eyes.. and I thought.. lets let that pic be my "Hi, I am back pic" The response was overwhelming.. it became and still is my most rated pic! After that.. I took a few more pics.. shying away from the full me pics...

The attention was there... like I had never left.. It took a few more ego strokes for me to get my full body in front of that camera again... Once I posted the first one.. and got the likes.. votes and bookmarks that I did.. I started to get excited.. I started to feel that ego repair..

72 days.. that is how long it took me to get what I refer to as my "snappy suspenders" Imagine me wearing some suspenders.. and I have my thumbs behind the straps on my chest.. and I pull them away from my chest a couple times.. not snapping them on me of course.. ouch.. haha.. But in a confident way.. 72 days!

Now like I mentioned before.. people come here for a unknown amount of reasons.. I feel that people stay here because of the Family that NN really has created and maintained.. I know for myself, I WOULD be that miserable fat girl still.. and I would never ever be able to say with confidence that I am a fat girl, yes.. but it is spelled with a PH.. PHAT!!

I will leave the best for last... the Green Shield.... That is a gold mine! Without being a paid member of this site.. I would not be able to post as many status messages as I do (my silly nature comes out here).. I would not be able to chat with the other members in PMs as I do (I take great joy in helping the other members with all sorts of things.. from photo suggestions.. to personal issues, good morning and just plain human interactions... a limit of these... would make helping others a lot harder!).. I would also not be able to watch videos (sometimes I like to see the vids)... or make the pics big when I want to see that tiny detail.. Then there is the notifications.. This is how I know how many people have liked my pics.. who commented.. How many liked my status updates.. Blogs.. and so on.. This is how I know at a glance what has been going on in my profile... without having to see each picture again in your gallery.. also nice to see.. "you have 99 notifications" when I have been away for a few days.. When you have that green shield.. you have all the freedom to move about the site without being told NO.. I hate being told no.. haha

After all this rambling.. I hope I have made it clear how this site has helped me become the snappy suspender PHAT girl I am today.. Can this also happen for you? Come on over and see..

Welcome to the NN.. we dont bite..

You get a massive boobie smushing hug from me!

You once said "I can not be this fabulous if I was with someone" What a mantra... and soooooo F'N true!

Snappy suspender moments being brought to you by a happily Single Wendy!!!

Started my at home business of selling and already am having success.. I am a natural sales Queen.. so.. just getting back into the business side of things.. learning all I can about these products that have been around for over 70 years.. Not hard to sell a quality product!

And now being told that I will be published again.. makes a girl wish she could do kart wheels and survive!

Thanks again cm for sharing your great way of being single.

HUGS for you.. and HUGS for you.. and for you too.. massive HUGS for all the ladies in the house too!!!! HUGS for all!!!!

and 227... and 41221 and 442.. and 416... and last but not least 7969... ya those are my numbers.. Code to some.. reality to others.. sandstorm thinking to many more, haha

I will have to admit.. that today.. I woke up and felt a tiny bit different.. and yet.. still felt familiar.. I think I thought I was wearing suspenders.. because upon waking .. I snapped them to my chest... Top of the morning to you Wendy.. hehe...

This feeling.. this is why I came back to the site on a daily basis... These numbers are what helped me get to my suspender snapping moment... I am eternally grateful for this from all of you!!!

How do you repay strangers for helping you feel like you are one of the best versions of yourself?? The answer I keep getting to is this.. Just keep being yourself Wendy.. It seems to be working!!!

Will do!!! Thank you!!!

now for something a little different.. haha

*places snarky hat on so everyone knows I am not always a sweetie.. ......

I will make a small to medium mention of something that seems to still sting a little... not enough to bring me down of course.. just enough to poke a tiny bit of negative energy that way... mwahahahaha (evil Wendy laugh) ...

A not so sweet man said that my kind.. ie the bigger gals.. should NOT post more than one pic.. that his skinny perky boobie woman should be getting ALL the attention.. that I should just make way for the royalty to come on through.. curtsy like a good little fat girl.. bhahahahahahahahahahahahahaha (I will use a good word I see in status often but have never used it myself until now) .....

Sorry Twat.. but 227... that number alone tells ME a totally different story than what you tried to make me believe.. lol... 227... and your number is?????? so low.. I could not even find it!!! Maybe.. just maybe if you were a tiny bit more original with your pic choices.. you would be getting the attention you so demand from this site.. but alas... you be like 90% of the others... and fall through the cum soaked cracks! You take care now.. bye bye..

Thanks for indulging into my mind this AM..

Booya... fat with a PH baby!!!

Hugs!

I know there is no way to say ThaNNks enough... but I am giving it my best shot...

ThaNNk you all for the love and kind words!

Hugs!!!

That is the sound my life made this weekend

I had a personal life explosion it's probably the best way to put it...

it wasn't a total loss of a weekend there was a birthday celebration in there... that was fantastic to be a part of... this girl turned 18... can't believe she's 18 already...

Anyway I keep being told that my life is really hard, when other people look in and tell me what they see... I feel this is just the way things are supposed to be.... but for the last few years I have been raising that white flag of enough is enough..... that I don't want to handle anymore.... after this weekend it is very apparent how broken I really am!! I used to be able to handle so much and now I'm at the point where literally I can either toast-and-butter a bagel or speak to someone.... I cannot do both! For somebody who used to own her own business multiple levels of a business... a company... I owned a company and now I can't even butter a bagel and talk at the same time..

I come here to this beautiful NN to escape... maybe like a lot of you too... I think in my "too serious lifestyle" in my real world.... I am not encouraged to be silly... everyone thinks I'm just dumb... but here I can be my silly self.. this is my outlet this is where I avoid all the chaos of my life..... this is where I come to lighten up of the mood of everybody.... make everyone feel better including myself.... If I was not being here on a regular basis I don't think I could continue in a positive way... I think the negative would just drag me down and I would become a bitter so and so...

So after this blog of my little tiny rant.... to get it out.... I am looking forward!

I am writing more naughty stories... I figure I could publish a book and then wouldn't need to rely on anyone else for money now would I!!! The writing of the stories is going well I've got 20 ideas... one story that's just now in editing that I wrote over the weekend in between all my chaos... another one that I wrote this morning... I just need to edit them now and of course not tell myself they are crap and just get rid of them hahaha.... Maybe even share a few..

Once again thank you for listening to my ramblings... I wish you nothing but absolute amazingness and I send about a million hugs!

BUT.... I have to share this.. cause.. I just do... Not for ego boost either... just to share my thoughts.. ha..

I do apologize to this member for posting this... I wont give names at all.. but WOW.. lol

"Hi just dropping a line , i enjoy fun sexy chat and curvy ladies are hot. I find sexually confidence a turn on, hope to hear back. any questions feel free."

SO... where the potatoes does it state on my profile that I am a CONFIDENT woman.. lol.. I know my profile does not say how much I HATE online play.. But the odds that I would be a match for this message is beyond my thoughts.. the only thing that makes sense here.. his lower head had a copy and paste option..

Just sharing this for myself I think.. so I dont bombard status with this silly little message..

dont worry... my ego is working better than it did almost two months ago now.. But still... sexually confident... NOPE.. I cant even have sex.. lol

Hugs for your day... hope this made you giggle more than anything..

I know you are not here anymore.. and that I cant even reach you.. but incase you see this... I wanted you to know that I am thinking about you!

Happy Birthday!!!

Hugs!!!!!