Every time I see you it drives me crazy. Going out a few times and trying to behave myself even though I have been wanting to make love to you since the moment we met. The curse of wanting to be a gentleman and wanting to ravish you.
We both know that tonight is the night to put aside being coy and chaste. One of those special times with someone special where the anticipation adds to what would already be the first time making love to you. You’d think that after all the years of living there wouldn’t be a hint of nervousness.
The candles are lit when I open the door for you. The dancing flames provide a haunting illumination to your face. The reflections of the flames burn in your eyes giving an outward glow to the fire inside of you.
You step through the threshold and into my embrace. You tremble slightly as my heart starts racing as we kiss. A shutter of desire runs down my spine as our embrace and kisses grow more passionate.
Through the candle light we walk and kiss. Two large candles on the night stands burn bringing the fresh smell of vanilla into the air with each flicker of the flames. A red and white rose lie crossed, propped between the pillows.
I look into your eyes a long moment, not wishing it to end, before kissing you again. My thumb caresses your cheek as cradle the back of your head with my hands. My fingers threading through your hair. I look deeply into your brown eyes as my other hand traces the line of your spine on your lower back. You can feel me growing hard as you look into my eyes and kiss me back passionately.
The desire to taste your kiss and breath in the scent of your skin.. My kisses wonder from your lips to your ears to your neck. Soft tender kisses you can hardly feel. Passionate, longing kisses which linger for an eternity but not long enough. Playful little nips with the teeth.
Almost as if by a magical unspoken cue we step back from each other, Our clothes slowly, playfully falling from our bodies.
Under the sheets we hold each other, naked, our skin burning, excited at the contact. “If ever there was anything worth waiting for in this life, “I whisper in your ear. “It would have to be this moment with you my darling.” You promptly kiss me to shut me up before I can say something stupid and ruin the moment.
We lay together, holding each other. Our fingers just touching each other. Occasional shifts of our bodies brush my hardness against your very wet clit and labia. It is a fight to keep myself from kissing you and just sinking into you. A longing for the communion of two bodies and two souls.
Kissing down your neck I can’t help but to take one of your breasts in my hand. Your nipple already erect grows more hard under the caresses of my hand. Lowering myself I take your other nipple in my mouth. Grazing it lightly with my teeth, suckling it I look up into your half closed eyes. The sensual smile on your face, the look of desire in your half closed eyes are driving me crazy with desire.
You open your eyes and a look of disappointment crosses your face as I stop kissing your nipples. The look lasts only for a brief second as you realize why I stopped. As my first kiss tastes the sweetness of your clit. The briefest, smallest kiss there as I move to kiss your inner thighs. The scent of your sex less than an inch away from my nose and mouth drive me wild. But I kiss your inner thighs. I am not sure if I am teasing you or teasing myself. The only thing I am sure of is that I cannot tease you like that much longer.
Taking your clit between my lips, a long tender soft lick with my tongue. I hear you breath deeply and a soft moan escape your lips. You were soaking wet to start with but it seems that the touch of my lips and tongue made you even more wet. The taste of sweetness, I lap up.
Long slow light licks on your clit like licking an ice cream cone. The sucking it in between my lips my tongue fast like the wings of a humming bird on the pearl between my lips. Wanting so bad to taste you as you cum…. Your breathing gets heavier, you start to squirm. A finger slips into you with ease. Finding your spot I press with my finger as I suck you between my lips. It isn’t long until I am rewarded with the taste of your orgasm.
Continuing to have your clit between my lips through your orgasm you pull me off. Between pants of breath your hoarse voice tells me it is too sensitive.
I crawl back up the bed, look into your wonderful brown eyes and smile. Holding you close and kissing you I can taste you on our kiss. We kiss for an eternity, shifting I slide into you. The hot passion of the feeling of penetration. That in itself, the simpleness of being inside is almost enough to bring me over the edge.
Without moving inside you. My thumb finds your clit and presses lightly, rolling it between my thumb and forefinger as we lay there, me inside of you. Kissing, caressing your cheek . For a short eternity of bliss I do this till I feel you shutter with orgasm again, Not wanting to ruin the moment with words I just smile at you.
A look of disappointment crosses your face as I start to pull out of you. Pressing my hardness against your clit I slide back in, only the head, sliding along your g-spot as just the head enters you. A few more times, then the full length into you. Again and again doing this, each time a small pleasured breath escaping from you. This I can only do so long before driving myself crazy wanting the release that only you can give me, Trying to speed up and slow down to time it just right so that we both cum together. Collapsing into a single body and soul.
Through the night we make love until finally too exhausted for anything else we fall asleep in each others arm.

Had my anti-depressant changed at the beginning of the year and the fuckers made me gain 30lbs (13.6kg). Have been going to the gym to work some of that off.

It still doesn't do much to for when I'm wanting a snack. Little trick that seems to work for me is getting some herbal teas (peach, and some berry ones) just throwing in a teaspoon of sugar or honey with the tea and having that instead of snack. Just enough calories and glucose/fructose (under 10) to trick the brain into thinking you had a candy bar without downing a shit ton of calories.